Can't Be Tamed

Not a tiger, lion, elephant or any other beast. They can be tamed. You know what? Taming your own senses are much harder than taming those beast. All of your senses are rough and wild I might say. They can do anything without your conscious.

You eyes could see bad things and won't stop for it. For instance, seeing pornography, seeing those who in needs but we sometimes refuse to recognize it.

Your hand is, i think, the hardest to tame physically. When you failed to tame them, hands that support you do generous things could hurt those you love physically, most of the time. Same things for your feet.

Your ears, who can stand against gossip, rumor. Everybody, I have to say, love gossip! Those ears could reject the fact, could slip the truth when information come to an ear, and gone out from another.

Your mouth, could be the wildest, the hardest to tame. They could ultimately destroy one's mood. In extreme case, they could kill, not literally though, but they have capability to do so. They could do bad things out of nowhere, spontaneously. They are the most danger of all.

That's it for now. Christmas is coming! I can't believe it's almost Christmas again.

When Peoples Walk

It's been a time since I last post something in here. Actually couple time I had something that crossed my mind, but I didn't pour it here and I soon forget about it. Now, I have something in my head, and I'm gonna write it now, here.

When people are walking, they various style of viewing their way. Some of them see it straight forward, some are looking all the way around ( I do this!), and some walk with their head down.

People who see the road straight forward, I think they are the people who see everything to the forward, they might not care or bother things. I do think that people who do this are people with determination and they might unaware with the danger that comes from below, back and around them.

People who walk with their head down, people might say that those who did this are people who felt inferior and they might say that people should not walk like this. I disagree. These people are people who are down to the earth, they don't forget the land where they step, they also might be aware of things that might makes them tripped.

People might say that people who see around when walking might don't have principle. Well, I think people who do see around when walking are people who are fully aware of his/her surrounding. They are aware for what might tripped them, what might hit them from right or left, what might stab them from the back, and most importantly they knows what ahead of them.

I think that's all. I don't think I write this well. People might disagree, but hey, it's merely my personal opinion. I have no mean of insulting people here.

When People Stress

Stress is something that is inevitable in people's life. No matter how you do, it will look and come to you. In some case, stress is able to take one's life literally.

After several stress attack, I just know there are some way to counter it and people often use this methods as well.

1. Drink. People usually drink (alcohol) to forget their stress. It is proofed effective temporarily.

2. Extreme Case: usage of drugs. Yes, it's an extreme case, it is said able to distract people from their stress, and even from their regular life.

3. Hobby. Hobby? Yes, it's able to distract. It's harmless in most occasion, and able to fill in your world, also kick stress aside. It's one of the constructive way to kill stress. I develop my photography interest during my stress period sometimes ago.

4. Drink non-alcohol. The same as the 1st point, the difference is you don't drink any alcohol. Coffee, tea, juices are the common example.

5. Find a getaway. Find somewhere pleasant, calming. It's really helpful.

That's it. To clarify, I won't say that currently I am being attacked by stress nor I currently living a happy life, but I just want to share something that crossed my mind (again). Lol. Thanksgiving is coming! Yeay!

Homesick

I guess it's been a while eh? No, currently I'm not having a homesick, I just wanna talk about it, for now.

It's been a couple month for me and my friends here in DVC (it's my 5th month, some entering their 3rd), and they started to miss their home for some reason. It could be because they live alone in here (literally no roommate), or the extreme case, being alienated and having only a few friends.

As far as I know, there are two friends of mine who having those symptom, one manage to overcome it, while the other is just begun feeling it. She feel alone simply because she has few to trust, really few, and I guess she miss her condition back in Indonesia.

Does anyone know how to help her?

Anyhow, in case you're questioning wether I had or have homesick yet or not, yeah. I had once, but not in high stadium. I manage to recover quickly.

I believe homesick have to be cured as soon as possible. If it don't it will ruin both of our daily and academic life. Try to cheer.

Trust A Few, Fear The Rest

That quote, is taken from the poster of X-Men. It does mean about we have to trust some of the mutant, and fear the rest of it. Somehow, those quote applied here, in the real life.

As I left high school, I currently experience the college life. Several month after start it, I realize that I have to pay attention to the others. I do learn a lesson, still learning though, that I can't trust a lot of people. I have to pay attention to what I said to other, because I really don't know what they really are, whether they might spoil things to other people or nit. Most of them are nice, but all of them has some quite unacceptable but. By seeing (not viewing), we might be able to know who to trust, vice versa,

Life in college/university is different with high school. One of my housemate who come from Taiwan once said: "I prefer has a few friend. To many friends would cause drama(s). I'm tired of dramas."

I think she's quite right. I'm able to accept that.

To See, Not to View

The title, what is the different?

One of my teacher once told me "to see, not to view". It once used by him to tell us the basic things to do in order to learn photography well. To view is to see something in flash, but to see itself is to identify everything you see to every detail.

3 month after he told me that, I realize that that quote has a deeper meaning. It doesn't always deal for photography, cinematography or other visual art form. It also has some meaning for life.

We often judge something only from one situation, sometimes ignoring the fact or even the other information about the same situation, meaning we ignore them. This kind of things is as the same as when we view something. We don't know anything about the detail. If we keep doing this, there are possibilities when we tell others about what we judge, and as a result will create a prejudice which often is a bad one.

For example, we would say a man who lease his apartment units is being dishonest for his price is more expensive than the other unit in the same apartment. People are telling us that he is. For they think way he run the business is tricky, but they don't understand for they are short-minded. Their short mind is the one that gives us a prejudice about that poor man, that actually is not that dishonest.

In the other hand, if we are able "to see", we would think about his business, about it is natural if he seek for profit, how acceptable his price actually is if we're able to understand it (and it is understandable). When we see things that happened, we have to think it deeply, is it what really what happened? Or what is the real background, or the purpose or the reason of a happening.

We always have to see, not to view.

Scary Things That Happened

I know, I haven't post anything since....the time I can't remember. And, to be Frank, this isn't a good time to post for I have an essay to work on, but anyway, I should post it before that thing evaporate.

Some friend of mine came to Pleasant Hill on June 13th. One of them, named Kevin told me some scary shit. Soon after their arrival, our agent brought them to Holiday Inn in Concord. When he arrived there, he saw Edgar, who came with him along with other people, talk to a person. That person is described as wearing a maroon red shirt, wear a black jacket that has orange motive in it, has spiky hair, and the height about the same as I am. His lips is very similar to me, and so does the way he laugh. Practically, he was stating that he saw me talking to Edgar when they were in Holiday Inn. Then he said that that person vanished when our agent gave them their room key and he didn't see him when our agent took them to Denny's later.

He was sure that I was there. It happened on June 14th, around 12 a.m and I was in my apartment along with my other mate. So, basically, it's impossible for me to be in Holiday Inn at that time! Later, Edgar said that he didn't talk to nobody before he received his room key.

So, who is that person who really like me? Was it a ghost who is using my image? Or is it my alter ego? Well.....guess it.

Mellow Day

My second post, since I arrived in United States of America. So far is so good for me. I've been through some boring session, and now I'm quite settled in here. Everything was fine and enjoyable, we're all happy until this moment.

Problem are arising. Most of my friends have to face problems of their own, their disagreement either with their family or girl/boyfriend. It just so natural. A boy or girl studies oversea, soon, they break up.

I have to appreciate friends of mine who stay together even though they are apart for almost a year, they are so great. I do hope that they stay together, as long as they can.

Anyway, I have things to concern beside that. Not that I have problem, but, I have goals to achieve.

Goodbye

I should've post something, I would, but I always forgot to. Well, I haven't. Anyway, this is the day I'm going abroad. To study, alright.

Well, this song Leaving on a Jet Plane, I feel it's suit me quite well now.
Here it is:

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

So hug me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, hey, I hate to go....

That's all I can post. Blame twitter for this.

Degradation

"Wow, I'm graduating from high school, but I do wanna play child's sand art"

"I'm about to attend college and right now I'm watching Toy Story 1 and 2 (again) and cried like a little child."

"I'm 17 going on 18, and I'm visiting theme park, excited like a little boy taken there by my pa and ma."

Those kind of quotes, were heard by me recently, and I thought some of it too. Why could those things slip to our mind lately? We're graduating from high school, and about to attend college but we often think like we're 5th or even 3rd grader!

One night, i finally come with an answer, rises in my mine. All of us, the senior high student are afraid. Deep down inside, we're afraid of growing up. Some of us, afraid of losing things we enjoyed, things we loved, things we have in this moment.

Deep down inside we're all wanna be forever young.

Hal Khawatir

Rasanya lama sekali tidak meng-update blog ini. Lama-lama bisa bernasib sama seperti account flixster nih. Oke, sekarang ada yang baru.

Ada sebuah perumpamaan, sesorang apabila bepergian, dia pasti membawa satu dari lima barang ini:

1.Handphone

2.Sisir

3.Permen/makanan ringan
4.Saputangan

5.Rosario/kalung salib

Jika anda harus memilih, manakah yang akan anda bawa?

• Jika handphone yang anda pilih, anda khawatir tidak bisa berkomunikasi dengan orang lain.
• Jika sisir, anda khawatir dan tidak percaya pada penampilan anda.
• Jika permen/makanan ringan, anda khawatir akan kelaparan, ketidakcukupan dari kebutuhan perut anda.
• Jika saputangan, anda khawatir akan pribadi anda yang sering grogi/tidak percaya diri.
• Jika rosario/kalung salib/atribut agama yang dapat dibawa, anda khawatir bahwa Allah tidak menyertai anda!

Hai kalian, janganlah khawatir! Selalu ada Allah, sang Penguasa yang menyertai kita! Ia tidak akan meninggalkan kita meski teman-teman mau pun sanak saudara meninggalkan kita. Ia akan mencukupkan kita.

Percayalah saudaraku. ALLAH selalu sertamu.

Complicated Creature

Complicated creature, or complicated beings. That's what women, girls, and other daughters of Eve are. They're so complicated so that only they, the other women/girls and GOD knows what's on their head.

Of course they are, why? One of the reason is, they have an ability to say A while what they really mean is B, C, or even Z. Can't get it? Here's an example. A boy asked her girl what she want for her birthday, then the girl replied that it's enough for her as long as her boy remember her birthday so that he doesn't have to give her anything. The boy give her nothing. She's mad. Why? Because on her head she expect her boy to give her something (special I think).

Then, females has another special abilities (which I have found out). One of them, is the capability of changing mind or point of view in night (calmly!). This ability is amazing isn't it? They're capable of change the way they treat males, friends, or maybe even siblings! Sometimes I do hope this ability. :)

Last but not least, I have to restate that no one, but no one know what's on their head. One said that if you wanna know what's inside their head, you have to think like them. Never try to guess what's inside their head.

Right, as a conclusion of this silly post is: "Females are the most complicated puzzle mankind ever known". Don't you agree?

Being Yourself

We live in this world, and believe it or not, sometimes we're not being ourselves. We could be having job we don't enjoy, attending wrong class at college, or else.


The fact is, we have to be ourselves, but how?
The easiest thing we could have done first is, defining our original interest, for example, I love traveling and I love the beauty of nature and that makes me more comfortable in landscape photography instead of photograph that involve model and photographing event.

And the least thing you should do, in my opinion, is not to being other's want you to be. For example, your parent want you to be a doctor, but you love the law deep inside your heart. Pick law in college instead of doctor. But still you have to listen to others because your friend could criticize you and you can take the positive side.



Well? A short one today, i do hope you enjoy it.
~The hardest battle you'll ever fight is the battle to be yourself.~

Teman Jangka Panjang

Pertemanan adalah sebuah topik yang sangat sangat lazim, dan tak jarang diangkat dalam karangan seseorang (bahkan blog ini pernah memuat postingan tentang hal ini). Sekarang, mungkin akan dibahas lagi ya..

Kalau dipikir-pikir, mempunyai teman adalah hal biasa (yang tentunya wajib disyukuri). Begitupula memiliki sahabat. Banyak orang yang menganggap bahwa mereka memiliki sahabat. Tapi apakah hal itu benar? Terkadang memang benar, tapi ada kalanya orang yang kita anggap sebagai sahabat itulah yang 'menghancurkan' kita.

Yang dibutuhkan seseorang bukanlah teman, rekan, ataupun sahabat (jangka pendek), yang sangat dibutuhkan adalah teman jangka panjang. Teman jangka panjang inilah yang bisa disebut sebagai sahabat sejati. Teman jangka panjang inilah yang mampu mengkritikmu secara positif. Mereka pula yang dapat menerimamu meski kau telah membuat mereka kecewa. Mereka juga adalah orang yang akan terus mensupport kau dalam berbagai hal.


Teman seperti ini sangatlah sulit didapat. Mereka adalah orang yang dapat kau percaya sepenuhnya dan mereka didapat tidak dengan segera, melainkan melalui hitungan tahun, bukan hanya 1 atau 2 tahun.

Mereka (sangat kecil kemungkinannya untuk) tidak akan menyakiti perasaanmu, dan saat mereka melakukan itu, pastilah disebabkan engkau melakukan kesalahan terlebih dahulu.

Jadi, carilah teman jangka panjang, karena selain pasangan hidupmu, merekalah yang akan mengisi hidupmu dan mensupportmu sampai hari-harimu berakhir.

Wish For Something

Jolly. It's 2010. And i started this year with a sickness. How sick is that? But fortunately, i recovered, well, not fully though, but it's enough to handle school.

Well, new year can be used as a time to set a new goal, a new hope, or even a new beginning. This year's going to be a big year for me. Well, at least I hope it will be. And it should be.

Things I really wish to come true this year are:

1.watching Java Jazz
2.Attending college, in US.
3. well, before attending college, graduate with good mark of course.
4. see Lakers in action
5.travel with friend(s)
6. be a better man

and one optional things that i don't really wish to come true: is to have a girl, but that's optional. xD

Right, like i said, it's another new year, another new day, another new life, and I'm feeling good. Let's put our past behind, and learn from it. Walk it head straight up. New challenges are waiting for us.

Perihal BackStabber

Beberapa hari yang lalu, terlintas berbagai pikiran mengenai backstabber atau orang yang bisa-bisanya menikam teman bahkan sahabatnya sendiri dari belakang. Hal yang pertama kali terlintas di pikiran adalah betapa jahatnya backstabber itu, menurutku backstabber sama seperti seorang pengkhianat.


Setelah kupikir, kurenungkan, pantaskah kita benar-benar membenci seorang backstabber? Dilihat dari beberapa kasus mungkin, namun, sadarkah kita bahwa kita semua pernah secara sengaja atau tidak sengaja menusuk orang dari belakang? Hal yang serupa sama atau mirip dengan kasus ketika seseorang membicarakan kejelekan atau keburukan teman, sahabat, saudaranya di belakang. Pantas kah seseorang marah untuk itu?

Orang dapat berkata bahwa para backstabber dan orang yang ngomong di belakang adalah pengecut. Tapi, ketahuilah, jika pendapat mereka benar, maka semua orang di dunia ini adalah pengecut yang hanya ngomong di belakang.

What I learned today..

Um, well, today (11/12/'09) is the day I learned a lot.

1. do NOT depend on peoples who depends on you a LOT, because they have big chance to disappoint you.

2. Jakarta's best view comes when sky is dark. It's just, so beautiful.

3. never ever think that it's going to be easy, plan everything well

4. ice lemon tea+movie with long duration+strong Air Con= urinate a lot during movie!

5. 2012 is a bad with fuckin long duration provided with magnificent effect but irritating plot. Certainly can't understand why people get in lines to watch this movie.

These things was posted in my twitter account, but i think it's not a bad idea to repost it in my blog. From micro to macro? So what?

The Power of Kepepet

Oke, sekarang lagi ujian semester/ulangan umum, dan saya masih sempat-sempatnya ngepost (dan ngetweet di twitter!).

Well, pengalaman saja ya, saya sudah menyicil ulangan umum dari hari Sabtu, jadi weekend kemarin benar-benar saya pergunakan untuk belajar. Tapi apa yang saya rasakan? Saya merasa tekanan itu ada, dan saya merasa tidak mengerti apa pun yang saya pelajari pada weekend kemarin, sekalipun bisa, merasa tidak mantap.

Namun menjelang hari "pertempuran", saya belajar kembali, dan merasa apa yang saya pelajari lebih mudah dimengerti. Mengapa?

Menurut teman saya, itulah kekuatan dari kepepet. Mental dan fisik dipaksa oleh syaraf untuk melakukan sesuatu lebih dari yang kita mampu, atau setidaknya mendorong kita hingga mencapai titik maksimal.

Well, percaya atau tidak percaya deh!
Oh, weekend kemarin saya menyicil dari bahan-bahan yang saya anggap sulit, hari ini relatif lebih mudah, apa karena itu ya?

Student's Problem

Alkisah, Iblis sedang mencari cara untuk menarik manusia untuk jatuh ke pelukannya. Ia sudah berpikir berbagai cara, antara lain, memberitahukan manusia bahwa TUHAN itu tidak ada, serta ketidakberadaan surga dan neraka, namun itu gagal menurutnya. Maka, seorang utusannya menganjurkan untuk memberitahukan manusia bahwa TUHAN itu ada, begitu pula dengan surga dan neraka, namun ia berkata kepada iblis untuk memberitahukan kepada manusia bahwa mereka memiliki banyak waktu untuk bertobat.


Sebenarnya, kehidupan siswa-siswi di berbagai sekolah di Indonesia, terutama Jakarta adalah serupa atau boleh dibilang mirip cerita di atas. Sekolah/kuliah memberi mereka tugas, tugas yang amat banyak, dengan deadline yang amat panjang. Tapi mereka (atau bisa dibilang kami, dan saya) cenderung menunda-nunda akibat hati berbicara akan lamanya waktu yang tersedia, sampai akhirnya kami panik ketika deadlinenya tiba (biasa antara D-3 sampai D-1). Tidak sedikit dari mereka yang mendapatkan hasil yang tidak maksimal bahkan gagal dalam menyelesaikan tugas-tugasnya.

Kalau dipikirkan kembali, maka hal itu juga ditemui pada pekerja kantoran atau karyawan. Hal ini terkesan sepele dan mungkin meninggalkan senyum kecil saat membaca artikel ini, namun hal ini nyata dan berbahaya. Solusi? Mungkin dimulai dari diri sendiri, dan jangan biarkan kemalasan mengambil alih.


Saya juga masih berjuang menghadapi hal ini.

Don't Judge a food by it's images!

Well, talking about food here, no about photo! Surely you ever heard the quote: "photograph does trick". Well, really I have to admit that (for I'm a photographer, rookie, to be frank), because that is what photographer should do.

When I came into a restaurant and ordered food based on the menu's images, I often found that the food served was different compared with the menu's images. For example, Chicken Katsu in one Japanese Restaurant looks big in it's menu images, but in contrast, it is really small! These kind kind of problem can be found in some fast food restaurant, but not in Toni Jack's .

The (not so) brand new Toni Jack's

Toni Jack's used to be known as McDonald's which is owned some by Mr.Bambang R. In one Toni Jack's restaurant, I saw images of burgers which were very tempting, for it looks big and juicy. I ordered one. And I quite surprise after knowing that the burger is smaller than it looks, and the patty is thinner. Then I look at the images again and I realize, that they use the same size of the bun and the same thin patty as I eat in the images.

The actual size of the burgers. Wanna see the images menu? Visit the closest Tony's Jack!

What makes it big and tempting? The answer is, the photographer. The photographer succesfully shot them and makes it tempting because that's what they get paid for.

So, in conclusion, we can't always blame the restaurant for using unactual size for it's menu, sometimes, blame the photographer!

PS: Toni Jack's is almost the same as Indonesian McD. The difference comes on the name of the menu, and the prices which was cheaper. "Better than that one" is the motto. Provokative isn't it?